So, someone told you we all left on the train, but... The whole time, the train was the place that everyone who had died was sent. So - there was only one way for anybody to go home.
[So... In terms of casualty, only one off from Lili's own experience, but.]
The point I'm trying to make is... Even after they knew, they never lost their shit completely or tried to fuck anyone else over to last a little bit longer, or - anything. So, it's pretty safe to say you can count on them even under incredibly fucked up circumstances.
Ookurikara was one of the first to know but he... would never rush people to their ends, and he would never hurt an innocent person. He only wanted to be around at the end to ensure that the person we could all trust would be the one to remain.
I speak not from bias... but because he's genuinely one of the most honest and moral people I've ever met. So eve if he's unfriendly, he is reliable.
[ . . . Well, it's not like Lili to back away from talking about something.]
... it was corruption, right? So if you were corrupted, you'd probably end up killing someone by the end of the night. I always said.... I would rather be killed before I was made into a puppet, and harmed an innocent person.
But the people who could be informed about corruption beforehand... they tried to save me, instead of just doing their job and killing me. One of them - a girl who said she wanted to be my friend - died the same night that I did, because we both fell into the ocean and were attacked by a shark, because she didn't listen to me when I said I would rather just...
[die. before anyone else got hurt. and instead...]
... sometimes even I get tired - of being the cause of the downfall of others.
I don't think that has to do with you as much as it has to do with them. [That is, it's not because Lili seems weak or like she needs to be rescued.] But... If it were someone else, you would want to save them even if it were a risk to yourself, right?
[ . . . it's a good point, at least. one that makes her pause.]
... I suppose that's not wrong, but... I suppose it depends on if I knew what that person wanted, and if I wanted to respect that.
[her issues with her death are swamped in both the guilt of endangering another as a result - but also the fact that apparently she wasn't respected enough to be listened to.]
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[ . . . she shakes her head]
That's just my impression though. I guess you could ask Guy himself if you want more details, or someone from the temple but - you wanted to know.
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It would probably look weird if I brought it up with him, but - I’ll keep it in mind. It’s good to know who we can trust.
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... Yin Yu. Flayn. Dimitri. Dick. Akira. Ash. Ookurikara and his comrades.
They're the other people I'm willing to put my trust in for now.
['other' implying that Natalie is one]
Everyone else is kind... but I don't get along with people easily.
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[But not just for sentimental reasons.]
Have you, um - somebody's told you how our game ended, right?
[It's difficult for her to talk about, but she knows it'll highlight the point she's trying to make.]
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.... with you able to make requests as you left on a train?
[that's what she got from percy at least]
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[Endgame conditions... are bad, sometimes.]
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I don't think that was mentioned yet. What was it?
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It isn't as bad as the one Dick and Escha came from, so promise you won't freak out?
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she seems to take a moment to steel herself]
... Mm. I won't.
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[So... In terms of casualty, only one off from Lili's own experience, but.]
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enough.]
... You all...?
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[She's moving on quickly, though!]
The point I'm trying to make is... Even after they knew, they never lost their shit completely or tried to fuck anyone else over to last a little bit longer, or - anything. So, it's pretty safe to say you can count on them even under incredibly fucked up circumstances.
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Mm. In the village, it was... all but one.
Ookurikara was one of the first to know but he... would never rush people to their ends, and he would never hurt an innocent person. He only wanted to be around at the end to ensure that the person we could all trust would be the one to remain.
I speak not from bias... but because he's genuinely one of the most honest and moral people I've ever met. So eve if he's unfriendly, he is reliable.
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[...]
I guess we both know how much it sucks, then.
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Even though I knew it was inevitable...I would have liked to choose my end, instead of the way that it happened.
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You don't have to tell me if you don't want to.
[But the curiosity and concern are clear enough.]
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... it was corruption, right? So if you were corrupted, you'd probably end up killing someone by the end of the night. I always said.... I would rather be killed before I was made into a puppet, and harmed an innocent person.
But the people who could be informed about corruption beforehand... they tried to save me, instead of just doing their job and killing me. One of them - a girl who said she wanted to be my friend - died the same night that I did, because we both fell into the ocean and were attacked by a shark, because she didn't listen to me when I said I would rather just...
[die. before anyone else got hurt. and instead...]
... sometimes even I get tired - of being the cause of the downfall of others.
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[They're simple words to say after listening to all that, but they're achingly sincere, too.]
It wasn't your fault, though.
[But she knows that kind of sentiment might not be so easy to accept.]
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... It wasn't. If I had a choice, it would have just been me and only me.
But it's still... frustrating. To still be the type of person that people feel like they have to save, to the point that they make stupid decisions.
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I don't think that has to do with you as much as it has to do with them. [That is, it's not because Lili seems weak or like she needs to be rescued.] But... If it were someone else, you would want to save them even if it were a risk to yourself, right?
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... I suppose that's not wrong, but... I suppose it depends on if I knew what that person wanted, and if I wanted to respect that.
[her issues with her death are swamped in both the guilt of endangering another as a result - but also the fact that apparently she wasn't respected enough to be listened to.]
... but - otherwise... I guess you're right.
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[She shrugs.]
Not that I'm going to rag on whoever it was for trying their best. They probably didn't think they'd get killed.
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[it's been a couple weeks, but it still - sucks a bit, considering that lili had considered the girl a friend.
but she shakes her head.]
It's alright though - I don't plan on dying or giving up easily in this place regardless.
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[That helped heal the worst of her anger at the end of her game, though not towards everyone, at least.]
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[the more distant she is from it, the less angry it'll make her]
The girl who tried to save me and ended up dying is dating my partner, so I'm going to have to learn to tolerate her eventually.
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