It's fine. I know they were stupid. I... don't think things through well.
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One time, I was in a completely safe situation, but I got tricked so badly trying to chase after information that it landed both me and my dearest friend into a slave camp in the desert where they only served us drugged water.
[She doesn't quite know what else to say about it, but that much in sincere.]
...He would have. I didn't want him to get hurt, but I'm pretty sure it hurt him worse in the end. So I can't really blame him if things are different now.
... thanks. [she says that briefly, before considering her next statement.]
I get that too. Why you did it, I mean.
[ . . . ]
So if I can understand, and I've only known you three days, I think there's a chance that he'd understand too if he was really considerate of your feelings. I can't say whether it was the right thing to do but...
Do you have anything to lose in revisiting the subject?
Like I said, he already knows. So if he doesn't do anything about it, that means he doesn't want to. I don't really want to make him uncomfortable by bringing it up again. He's - important to me even if it's just friendship.
I said that before too since... Ookurikara was like that - for a while. I had to wait around for weeks, thinking that he wasn't interested in me. I think it's only because he was forced into considering it more that we're even where we are now.
So - I don't know. Maybe he can benefit from a nudge here and there.
[Sometimes you make out with someone, then everything blows up around you and there are 1092384 more important things to deal with, and then you show up in a brand new mess.]
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Because I'm an idiot.
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You aren't. Don't say that.
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It's fine. I know they were stupid. I... don't think things through well.
[ . . . ]
One time, I was in a completely safe situation, but I got tricked so badly trying to chase after information that it landed both me and my dearest friend into a slave camp in the desert where they only served us drugged water.
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I'm guessing the 'one time' thing means that you got away...?
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[so she thinks she can still confidently say it's... stupid.]
Were... you worried he'd try to save you, if he knew something was going to happen to you?
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[She doesn't quite know what else to say about it, but that much in sincere.]
...He would have. I didn't want him to get hurt, but I'm pretty sure it hurt him worse in the end. So I can't really blame him if things are different now.
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I get that too. Why you did it, I mean.
[ . . . ]
So if I can understand, and I've only known you three days, I think there's a chance that he'd understand too if he was really considerate of your feelings. I can't say whether it was the right thing to do but...
Do you have anything to lose in revisiting the subject?
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[She waves a hand.]
Like I said, he already knows. So if he doesn't do anything about it, that means he doesn't want to. I don't really want to make him uncomfortable by bringing it up again. He's - important to me even if it's just friendship.
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I said that before too since... Ookurikara was like that - for a while. I had to wait around for weeks, thinking that he wasn't interested in me. I think it's only because he was forced into considering it more that we're even where we are now.
So - I don't know. Maybe he can benefit from a nudge here and there.
Boys are pretty dumb.
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[Sometimes you make out with someone, then everything blows up around you and there are 1092384 more important things to deal with, and then you show up in a brand new mess.]
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[she didn't know the word]
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[she is so stupid, lili]
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Why not...
[she genuinely doesn't seem to comprehend]
Isn't it just - getting to know each other? Talking? That's what they're for, right?
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It's not engagement, right?
[PLEASE,,]
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[NOBODY ASKED IF YOU WERE]
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So what's wrong with a date!
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[SHE'S REALLY NOT GETTING THIS]
Can't you just - I don't know, kiss him and see if he's okay with it? Or ask to kiss him, if he doesn't like being surprised.
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[aaaaaaaa]
Things didn't - work out so great with the last person I was seeing, I don't want to rush into anything. Especially if he might not be on board.
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[LILI]
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[it absolutely was sorry lili]
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